Why Am I Still Holding On To You?

- originally written July 5, 2006 -

Who are you?
Why do I think of you day and night?
I haven't got so much as a clue,
As of how to make everything right.

Why did you come into my life?
With not a single word to say?
Why is your silence like a knife?
Cutting me and keeping me at bay.

And now that your long gone,
Why am I still holding on to you?
Thinking of you beyond dusk and dawn.
And my life is suddenly subdued.

And I sit and wonder.
What Ill do when I see you once more.
Will the silence be as loud as thunder?
Will I be able to refrain from running out the door?

I keep telling myself to be brave.
To tell you that your driving me crazy.
I keep telling myself I'll be able to behave.
That I wont let the tears make my eyes hazy.

But to tell you the truth, I'm so scared.
What if I never do see you again?
What if I go forever undeclared?
What will I do then?