I'm Sorry

- originally written August 9, 2007 -

Nothing can ever happen between us
I just can't seem to bring myself to trust you
I can't do any of this if I always have to guess
For so many reason that are unfair to you

The chances are far too great, it's too easy
That you will repeat to another what you say to me
I don't mean to make you out as if you are sleazy
But of your dedication I have no guarantee

It's not even your fault; this is just how you are
But I need to feel like I'm the only one around
To hear that tone directed at another is too bizarre
It's enough to leave me feeling frozen to the ground

I already admitted that this is unfair on your part
I'm quite sure that this is all just in my head
But my head makes it far too hard for my heart
And I can't live with all of this internal dread

No matter how much you offer to do so
I can't ask you to change who you are inside
I am sorry that we didn't get a chance to grow
I'm sorry I couldn't be stronger when we tried