I Wish I Didn't Have To Dream

- originally written June 23, 2006 -

I wish I didn't have to dream.
To a world where things aren't as they seem.
Known too many reasons for strife.
I have known many torments in life.
But none as worse as being shown happiness;
Life as simple as the flutter of a butterfly's wing.
And then waking up to no such thing.

I wish I didn't have to see such things,
Taken to a place where even the moon sings.
I don't wish to be shown peace and love.
I can't listen to this happiness you speak of.
These things I can't have in the conscious life,
Pierce my heart as if they were the sharpest knife.
And make my life so much harder to live with.
I cant live with a heart heavy with pain.
A pain that make my tears fall like rain.